Cheers to all the healing therapies I've tried before.

I wish I was here to tell you that I figured out the secret to a charmed life. Alas I'm not. I am here to share what I have realized - that sitting with all of "it" isn't as scary as I once imagined.

For a long time I did what a lot of us do - I tried everything. Fasting cleanses. Yoga retreats. Talk therapy. Past life regression. Energy Medicine to name a few.

All different tools and different ways of releasing the things that felt stuck. And some of it helped. But something was still missing. I could let go of a fear and yet nothing radically shifted.

I'd find myself back in some of the same patterns - overthinking, pushing too hard, wondering why I kept showing up the same way in my relationships no matter how much healing I did.

Understanding how I am emotionally designed helped me.

What changed wasn't a moment. It was more like a slow light coming on. When I began to understand the why behind how I'm designed the light got brighter. After discovering the gifts that I bring to this world and exploring how my shadows get in my own way - I stopped searching for what was wrong with me. I started getting curious about who I actually am.

That's a very different feeling.

These days when something hard comes up - and it does because that's just part of life - I don't try to push through it or wish it away. I sit with it. I give it space. I've learned that emotions aren't problems to solve. They move through when you let them. That takes presence. Awareness. And a quiet kind of courage that doesn't always look like courage from the outside.

I focus on relationships because the most important one you'll ever have is the one with yourself.

And here's what I know to be true: the relationships around you - with your family, your friends, your significant others - are where you discover the most about who that is. They are your greatest mirror.

Some mornings I look out my window at the mountains, singing a tune I'm making up as I go, and I think - how lucky am I to have found my happy place - physically, mentally and emotionally.

That feeling took a while to find. And it's absolutely worth it.